Deonna Kelli Sayed

Fear is not real. It is a product of thoughts you create… Danger is very real, but fear is a choice. We are telling ourselves a story and we choose the day that story changes.

– After Earth

This morning I woke up pleased to learn that I’ve lost 3.2 pounds. More than the fact that I’m 3 pounds closer to being able to fit my clothes again, for me that progress symbolizes a step towards loving my body. Don’t get me wrong, no magical number on a scale equates how much I should love my body- I’ve had self-esteem issues whether I was 109 pounds or 143. Instead, my weight loss is a result of caring more about my body and my self.

The truth is that when I was going through those emotional months of being separated, not quite divorced, yet living in the same house as LA’s…