one day, on a day like today, i will call you

one day, maybe a day like today, when the sky has swallowed grey and belched out clean, white snow, i will call you up, just like that, to belch my own odes of forgiveness and mercy, to tell you how much i missed you during these slow days –and how so many other things fell into grey shades that year, least of all the weather.

there will come a moment, a moment like this one right now, with the scent of rose and patchouli on my body, that i will call you, just like that, to thank you for being in my life, even if for only mere seconds on the larger cosmological clock

i will call to honor the beautiful smoke you left wafting through my soul, the most exquisite incense found resting on my tongue,

and it tasted like you.

i can still taste your memories as if they happened just a minute ago, to somebody else in a line at a grocery store somewhere, like that time we wandered through one looking for an excuse to be alone together.

there will come a year, perhaps a year like this one, when I am brave and strong and the bone marrow will still sing your name, and I will call you up, without warning, to tell you that your absence cracked me open; your presence did even more than that

one day, there will be a second, like this one right now,  when every cell in my body will bend around the experience of you and complete  these cracks, without which I would have never known my deep capacity to love, to feed my messy parts, to unfurl all of this into thankfulness

that yours was a love that taught me how to know myself, and it made me brave.

one day, on a day like today, i will call you up to tell you these things, and of all of the parts of me that broke into pieces that year, I am glad that you did some of the breaking.

2 responses to “one day, on a day like today, i will call you”

  1. Beautiful! I love this!

  2. A single stream of flowing consciousness; preciously void of capitalization and punctuation.

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